memories of "Memoirs of a Geisha"

For the second time, I've watched "Memoirs of a Geisha" and with it came good memories. It made me smile, it made me dream, it made me fall in love... Hearing and watching Sayuri recall her life has made me, somehow, remember parts of my life--or at least a particular day when I was called "boring" because I didn't want to watch a suspense-thriller film. How can I forget the day when I had too much fries that I couldn't even eat them all? Remembering made me long for the extra sweet sundae with jelly-o at Mcdo. It was so sweet, I miss it. In fact, I miss the sweetness so much and I don't think I'd ever find a sundae as sweet as that in Korea; and I guess Mcdo will not offer it again. And even if they do, I don't think it would be as sweet as it passed my throat that night. Yeah, moments do fleet faster than my taste buds could register any other taste; and if I'd known that before, I guess I should have taken a picture of it. But then...

"no one can stop the flow of time.

but a picture kept inside a heart

wil always be there.

deep within, the picture will be displayed

and it will forever touch the heart...

sweetly...

bitterly..."

I've never given much thought on the question of believing in destiny. But I think I'm believing it now, though not entirely. What we are partly decides what we will be. There are just some things that we cannot avoid. Ah, not some things but a lot of things--a whole lot that it makes us think sometimes that we are being controlled by an unseen force (otherwise called as destiny) like a puppet, played at will. It sucks, I know. We are all victims of it. We dream dreams and yet we are so much hindered by so many things. I've thought before that believing is enough; but I've learned that each person is over-determined by so many factors that sheer will power is not enough. Perhaps, I should learn when to fight some more, and when to finally give in.

But then, fairy tales sometimes do come true. "Memoirs of a Geisha" afterall is a true story and if she believed--took each step of her life towards one dream of having the love of her life no matter how long and hard it takes-- and ended up happy, then it could happen to anyone. It could happen to me.

<*sigh*> I guess a fairy tale is not the kind of life my destiny chose for me.