summer fireflies

I just have to live with the fact that I will never be enough...

"According to Aristophanes in Plato's Symposium,...In ancient times people weren't just male or female, but one of three types: male/male, male/female, or female/female. In other words, each person was made out of the components of two people. Everyone was happy with this arrangement and never really gave it much thought. But then God took a knife and cut everybody in half,... the upshot being that people spend their time running around trying to locate their missing other half."

How can I make it through the day Without you You have been so much a part of me (and if you'll go) I'll never know what to do How can I carry on my way The memories When all that is left is the pain of my history Why should I live my life today I cannot live out on my own And just forget the love you've always shown And accept the fate of my condition Please don't ever go For I cannot live my life alone Say you'll never go Say you'll never go out my way Say you'll never go For we can still go on And make it through Just say you'll never go Say you'll never go away How can I make my dreams come true Without you You were the one who gave love to me (And don't you know) You are my fantasy I cannot live out on my own (I can't do anything at all) And just forget the love you've always shown And accept the fate of my condition Please don't ever go For I cannot live my life alone Say you'll never go Say you'll never go out my way Say you'll never go For we can still go on And make it through Just say you'll never go Say you'll never go away Say you'll never go Say you'll never go out my way Say you'll never go For we can still go on And make it through Just say you'll never go Say you'll never go away

Thursday, May 25, 2006

adik!

uy lam mo ba ngayon, alis na ulit papa ko. di ko na siya naabutan... aww... sadness. wala ng magt-tiyagang tawagan ako dito. yun lang naman kasi ang mat-tiyagang tumawag sakin kahit naasar na siya kasi wala ako lagi sa kwarto. hehe... ngayon kailangan ko pa yata tumawag sa bahay para lang sabihin na tawagan nila ako. nguwek.

ayun usap kami kanina. parang ako nga yung aalis dito kasi binibilinan ako ng papa ko tungkol sa pagalis ko dito, tungkol sa bag na bibilhin ko para sa extra stuff, pasalubong... feeling ko talaga ako yung uuwi eh noh! pero malapit na rin yun!! dava??

alam mo ba tipid mode nako dapat ngayon eh. nag-wthdraw nga ako kanina tapos kinuwenta ko na pera ko na tamang-tama lang para may maiuwi pako (at mabayaran pa utang ko sa mama ko). tapos ba naman, dumaan kami sa bookstore kanina para bumili nung level 2 na korean book. nakita ba naman namin yung english books naka sale 30% off!!! siyet na malagket! ayun... napabili na naman ako!!! kanina nga eh ang dami kong hawak na libro, actually di ko na sila mahawakan lahat sobrang dami. pero eventually i have to let go of some kasi wala na akong cash. buti na lang hindi ganun karami yung na-withdraw ko kundi!! patay-patay ako!!! hay grabecious na ito. naaadik na ako!! lam mo ba, pag pumapasok ako sa bookstore, hindi ako umuuwing empty-handed. lagi-lagi akong bumibili talaga.

kasi ba naman, iba na ang pananaw ko sa pera dito. basta below 10,000won, mura na sakin which is actually P500! mahal noh pag converted pero ayun... mura na yun dito. di tulad sa pinas nao-overwhelm nako sa P200! hahaha!!

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Reprieve

Cold winds chill the bones
Icicles pierce the heart
Freezing rain drowns the soul

A cherry blossom smiles
Amidst the plains of snow.

On another Sunday Afternoon

Your palms and mine,
finger to finger
folded in a smooth linkage
of ins and outs
lines crisscrossing,
overlapping,
connecting.

Now, I feel half-empty.

Sa Pagtatapos ng Panahon ng Niyebe

Natutunaw ang yelo
mula sa kabundukan
at ang hanging dala nito
sa kapataga'y tila malamig na yakap
sa aking pagal na katawan.
Nasan ang mga bisig mong
magbibigay buhay
sa katauhan kong natigilan
sa gitna ng lugar kung saan
ang lahat ay walang pangalan?
huminga ang kabundukan
at malakas ang bulungan
ng luntian sa kapaligiran,
ngunit di mahihigitan
ang tahimik mong bulong sa aking tenga
"Halika" sabi mo,
at sa pagpikit ng aking mga mata
at sa muling paghinga ng kabundukan
magpapatangay ako
sa pakpak ng aking puso
patungo sa kweba
ng 'yong mga yakap.

Hearing... not

I opened the doors greeted by alcohol
It invited me further inside
To the corner
Where you sat
Nursing a glass of gin

The speakers vibrated
Like the pounding of my heart
I ran from the house
Three floors down
Three blocks on the road
Trying to catch you

Bottles clinked like bells at the next table
in cheers to celebrate a corporate secret:
the Boss still in tie just got hooked up
with the secretary bearing the biggest boobs
(Let's split up)

Smoke disperses in the air like the memories
of the warmth of our palms together,
fingers intertwined,
my head resting on the hollow of your chest
our last and first kiss
(Get your hand off me)

Sisig sizzles from the plate
electric jolts numbing my legs
(Take your chocolates home)
Men laugh showing off their tonsils

Still sitting still on the chair across from you
Staring at your finished glass of gin
Finished, not a single frop left
(Did you say something?)

I heard nothing but the
clicking of the latch
as the door closes.

Parting

sitting on a bench
my hand inching to reach yours
holding you tight
and with head low i said,
'stay'
but your eyes wander off
to the birds in the orange sky
flying off the horizon
my tears kissed the ground
as you free yourself from my grip
without so much as a goodbye
you fly away
and i'm left sitting still
embraced by the Baguio winds of December.